'desert based projects

something about a city in the high desert feels like a simulation. Where does all the lush green and abundance of water comes from in a constant drought? I felt as parched as the San Fernando Valley and ridiculously on display to show people that I can survive. The landscape of the High Desert was more honest to me than my social life or college counselors. And whenever I could have a conversation about my identity and explore its relationship to the environment, something would crack the egg of my ego. Crack, crack, crack, bloodpaint and tears.